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Not Exactly Ana's avatar

I’ve never heard of this October theory, but I’m surprised how much I can resonate with it. Wonderful writing and great moral of the story. Maybe it’s like a reminder that we should take the fire from the past, not the ashes.

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hannah's avatar

Yess so true! Thank you for reading <3

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Amanda Brown's avatar

Gorgeous. As always. The way you described this made me feel like I was watching a movie

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hannah's avatar

Thank you so much Amanda!! Your support means everything to me🤍

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know your innerverse's avatar

This was beautiful. The way you describe closure as quiet, ordinary, and almost tender feels so much truer than the dramatic versions we’re taught to expect. That line about the story staying closed and still being beautiful really stayed with me.

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hannah's avatar

This means so much to me, thanks for reading!!

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Miriam CR's avatar

I love how you write and describe this intimate yet surprising moment. I could picture the Italian restaurant with a cozy vibe, haha. I've heard about this October theory, but I didn't believe in it until it happened to me. My ex reached out as well, yet I still don't understand the intention behind it. Anyway, glad that im not the only one living this on october <3

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hannah's avatar

So glad to hear that I’m not the only one going through this haha, sending you so much love!!

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Una Rouquine's avatar

Wow this was so tenderly gentle on the soul, with a touch of quiet sadness but still its touch was soft. A time for reflection indeed. Beautiful🤎🍂

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hannah's avatar

Thank you for reading 🤍

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MAISHA RAHMAN's avatar

Oct 1st is my birthday soooooooo alot of ghosts do knock on my door.

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hannah's avatar

Omg not the birthday too, praying for you hahaha

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MAISHA RAHMAN's avatar

i love your writing Hannah

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hannah's avatar

Aw you’re so sweet, this made my day

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Maria Kiseleva's avatar

"People talk about closure like it’s an event. But sometimes it’s just a dinner that doesn’t end in disaster. Sometimes it’s walking away and realising you don’t need to check your phone anymore" — sooooo true

Btw my husband was my ex, who texted me in October after 1 year of silence. And now we are married for more then 10 years...

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hannah's avatar

Thank you for reading and oh wow congrats on the happy ending!!

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Div 🌻's avatar

What are the odds! I just published an essay documenting my catch-up session with my ex (which happened to be on the day you published your essay). October theory is definitely real. Meeting a former-lover-turned-stranger is always a bitter-sweet experience for me. I love the warmth and tender with which you approached your experience. Of course, there’s nothing left in the past, but it’s always tempting to take a peak behind the door.

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hannah's avatar

Wow no way what a coincidence, I’ve just read your piece, and it’s so beautifully written. It’s weird to think how reconnecting with someone you used to love is such a canon event in October!

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DiagnosisInLove's avatar

Never read as sign to get back with an ex, but rarely do I read about blissful closure.

I think you might have an excellent November!

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Crystel Amsalem's avatar

Charming, full of emotion. Love it 💕

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hannah's avatar

Thank you so much for reading!

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reserved muse's avatar

love love love the post!! october theory is def real <3

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hannah's avatar

Thank you!!

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vk's avatar

i can relate to this. october’s forced me to reflect and slow down, almost painfully. thank you for writing this!

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hannah's avatar

Thank you for your kind words!

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Viara ༊*·˚'s avatar

This is beautiful, it had me melting from within and drew out a bunch of emotions I keep bottled within myself, longing, wish and guilt. Honestly I hope I can also let go like how you did. Keep on writing!!

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hannah's avatar

I’m sure you’ll let go someday as I most definitely believe in time heals, sending you so much love 🤍

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Viara ༊*·˚'s avatar

Sending you love tooo ❤️❤️❤️

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Carolyn Parker's avatar

I’ve not heard of this theory either. I like the way you tell the story .. I was there with you at the table. The fact your ex didn’t mention the relationship or ask you to get back together surprised me .. that shows his maturity too. I’m not sure I would have agreed to go but there again my last relationship was abusive.

Beautifully written and thought provoking.

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hannah's avatar

Thank you so much for reading Carolyn!!

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doll's avatar

So beautiful!! You tied everything together so perfectly. Loved the reflections as well 🤍

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hannah's avatar

Thank you so much for your support!! ❤️

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Aster solenne's avatar

Love it grl! Amazing post! And will not meet my ex, I got my sign 😂😭💖🫂

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hannah's avatar

Good hahaha, thank you for reading!!

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Aster solenne's avatar

My pleasure grl! 😂💖

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